Fear
–noun
1. a distressing emotion aroused by impending danger, evil, pain, etc., whether the threat is real or imagined; the feeling or condition of being afraid.
The top ten fears are snakes, speaking in public, heights, being closed in a small space, spiders and insects, needles and getting shots, mice, flying on a plane, dogs, thunder and lightning, crowds, and going to the doctor. Most everybody has a fear and that includes me. What I am most afraid of are insects that fly, mostly moths. What I hate most about them is that they are unpredictable, they fly when and where they want and for some reason moths scare me so much. Others that aren’t so bad are ladybugs and butterflies. The top ten fears that I stated aren’t the only fears that people have, those are mostly fears of objects while some people have fears of trusting or getting close to someone, these are fears that are most common but are least admitted. The definition of fear is pretty clear but there is no definition of how to not be afraid of these things anymore. I wish I knew how to not be afraid of moths because summer is the time they come out and I wish I knew how not to be afraid to trust people who I don’t. Fear is developed at a time in our life when we have a traumatic experience with, what we now, fear. Honestly, I don’t know why I am afraid of moths, I just know that they scare me to death but I do know why I am afraid to trust people. I trusted my dad because he was my dad and when I was little that was all I needed to trust but now that I have grown up and that I understand that him being my dad isn’t enough to just trust him I don’t trust. My dad broke my trust and I only trusted him to love us and not to leave us, us being me, my sisters and my mom. I trusted him to not cheat and to not choose her and yet he let me down on every account so that is why I am afraid of trusting. Until something happens to me to where trust isn’t broken I am going to be afraid of trusting and because of my dad I will be cautious to whom I get close to and to the friends I share my deepest, darkest secrets. Fear might have a very clear definition but it doesn’t explain how to overcome these fears that I have, how to trust those that I don’t. Although it doesn’t explain this I do know one thing, I know that we fear what we have had traumatic experiences with and that is probably where you should start with overcoming your fear. Thank you for reading this blog.
