Like father like daughter?
Every other Friday we go to my dad’s house to spend the night or we just go over to spend time and we play games. My dad is really competetive and every time he dies in a video game he gets mad and blames it on someone else even if it wasn’t their fault. Especially when we want to have fun when we play the games he tells us that it is our fault that he died because we are messing around but we just want to have a good time. Me and my sister stayed up last night and we played Mario Brothers and she pushed me off and I got really mad and then I realized how much I sounded like my dad and I was mad at myself. My dad has a temper, and that is one of the many things I inherited from my dad and I hate it. I want to be a better person than my dad because he is really mean and competetive and I don’t want to have either of those traits from him, I don’t want to be like him and if you knew my dad the way I know him you wouldn’t want to be like him either. I was playing Rock Band and I was on hard, I was doing good and I wanted to show my dad because I thought he would be proud of me but he said, “oh you are missing a lot of notes.” my mom would have been like, “good job.” but of course my dad had to point out the negative. I just hope that when I am a mom I won’t be like him, I can’t be like him. Thank you for reading my blog.
Always My Fault
I am the oldest of three and I will admit that I can be pretty mean. Every once and a while it’s not me that is mean and maybe I’m just defending myself but my mom gets mad at me just because sometimes I can be mean she never thinks it’s my sisters’ fault. Now a lot of the time I am not the only one who is mean but I am the only one who says something, that might be mean, in front of my mom. My sisters might seem innocent and helpless but they are just as mean as I can be. It is tough being the oldest and it makes it worse to be blamed for things that aren’t always my fault. Now being the oldest is for another blog but this has a lot to do with it. I really just hate being blamed for things that aren’t always my fault. Thank you for reading my blog.
My Family Too
So my great grandpa (on my dad’s side) died last night. I feel bad for my dad because when he dropped us off he was trying not to cry but he is bad at hiding things like that. I don’t know anyone on my dad’s side of the family other than his parents/my grandparents and a few of his cousins. But I don’t know who is grandpa is, honestly I didn’t even know that we still had a great grandparent. I know pretty much everybody on my mom’s side and when my grandma talks about some of our relatives I sometimes don’t know who she is talking about but that is because my mom’s side is big. At least my mom let us be part of her life and visited them and took us along. My dad never talks about his family or takes us to visit family on his side. I have a right to want to know them because they are my family too even if it doesn’t seem like it to my dad. A lot of you might not understand me but there are probably so many people on his side that I have never even heard of, like his grandpa. My dad wants me to go to the funeral and of course I am going because I want to be there for my dad, he is so upset and I was the same way when I lost my grandpa and I know how he feels. I am not going to ask him if he wants to talk because that is not our relationship, I think it will (hopefully) mean a lot to him that we are there for him. I want him to know that I love him and I forgive him even if I am furious at him sometimes. Sometimes when I am sad I don’t want to talk about it I just want for someone to be there for me and I know that I am not alone in my time of need. Maybe that is one of the few things I have in common with my dad. I know it sounds weird but I wish I were sad, I wish that I was upset about my great grandpa dying but I can’t be because I have no idea who he is/was. I hate cemeteries because it makes me think about the two people I lost, my mom’s grandma and my grandpa Charlie, and people I might lose so going to the cemetery is going to be hard and my dad might not know this but I am willing to face this fear to be there for him and I might cry because it is going to be upsetting watching people cry and say good-bye again but I will. My dad is important to me and I love him so much even if it has been a rough time forgiving him, he is my father and I can’t be mad at him forever. So next week I am going to a funeral to be there for my dad. Thank you for reading this, it means a lot to me, to be able to just talk about how I feel and this is how I feel right now.
Small Moments Matter
Almost every year we put up our Christmas tree as a family. Like most families we have fun. I love putting up Christmas lights and putting lights on the tree. My favorite part of putting the tree up is putting the ornaments on the tree because it brings back great memories. I have one that shows my first Christmas and some that we made and those are great memories too. I really love how my family gets together to do small things, I am lucky to have a great family. Me and my family don’t get along a lot of the time but I love them so much. Small moments like putting up our Christmas tree and watching a movie together bring us together and I love those moments. I sometimes look at these things and think they are just small but they are the moments that keep us as a family and that let us remember the people who love us. So putting up the tree is fun and putting up ornaments is my favorite part but really my favorite part is being with my family. I love my family and spending time together is a great part of my life and I wouldn’t trade for anything in the universe.
Dec. 3, 2009
Today was a terrible day. First, it snowed and was almost below 0 degrees and when I walked into school some of my hair was frozen! I’m not going to school tomorrow because I don’t think I could handle it because today we had to put down Max. His ears were so bad that dad said that the vet said that it was a good thing that we brought him because he could hardly move his head. Mom had dad take him because she couldn’t do it. I know I am mad at my dad but I am thankful that he didn’t make my mom do it. Last night I didn’t feel sad but I didn’t know why, the worst part was having to watch dad take him away. He picked up Max and took him to his car, it was too hard to watch so I went to the bathroom and I cried. I wanted to run after him and tell him not to take Max but I knew that Max was in pain and he had to go. As I am crying I just miss him and can’t believe that he is gone. Kasey and Lindsey thought it was hard and sad just to say good-bye but they didn’t have to watch him get taken and see his little face looking innocent, like he had no idea what was going on and that goes for Angel too. Angel started crying because she was alone and didn’t know what was happening and I couldn’t take it. It was the worst feeling in the world to watch him leave and to not do anything about it. He was a great dog, I just hope that he isn’t in pain any more.
Fall Break
So at this time I am on Fall Break, that makes me really happy!!! At the same time it is snowing so even if it wasn’t fall break I probably wouldn’t have school anyway. So I have had two sleep-overs with my best friend Maddy and those were fun and other than that, honestly, I have been watching “Lost” which is only one of the best series in the world! Other than that I have been playing Wii and watching T.V. but I haven’t been watching T.V. as much as I used to which is a surprise. I have mostly been keeping my mom company since she is doing calls, I talk to her, she probably thinks I am really annoying even if she already knows that I am. She is lucky that I watch “Lost” down stairs where she works because every once and a while she can look over and watch a little bit. This blog has no point other than to tell you about my fall break and how much I am loving the break from high school. Thank you for reading this blog,
Rake or Leaf Shredder?
My mom went on a walk with her friend and she told us to go outside after we were done watching an episode of C.S.I. so me and my sister did what she said. She also dropped us hints like, “It wouldn’t be such a bad idea to rake the leaves.” So we went outside and we took turns, first Kasey would rake while I would jump on the pogo-stick (at the time I had reached 283 on the pogo-stick) and then we switched. When I started to rake I realized that it wasn’t getting all of the leaves. Not only was I not getting all of the leaves but I realized that it was shredding the leaves into a million pieces. I was surprised, I have raked leaves before but I never really paid attention when I raked leaves. Anyway, I realized that rakes are meant to put leaves in a pile and it just cut them up so my question is “is it a rake or a leaf shredder?” Thank you for reading my blog.
Sad
For some reason I have been feeling pretty sad lately and I am not exactly sure why. I an idea. I think a lot of it is coming from the stress of school, all of my classes are hard and my grandma expects me to get at least four A’s and that is out of seven classes. I am positive that I can try really hard but I can never be too sure. The stress could also be coming from home or after school I am worn out and just want to sleep but I am busy almost every day after school. I am starting to get irritated easier and I am getting in more fights with my mom than normal. High School has really changed me, I am getting to know new people and getting to realize how much I can’t wait to get out of school. I am glad that I am trying to get involved with things like the play and I want to try out for the tennis team. Right now I have practice almost everyday after school until about 5:30 and on Monday I have dance at 6 so when I do have practice on a Monday I can’t really make it to dance. On Tuesday I have youth group at 7:30 and I don’t get home until 9 and on Wednesday I have dance at 7. I am always doing something and I can never wait for Friday. The only days that I get to sleep in are Wednesday (only until eight) and Saturday. I wish that school was only four days a week but apparently the school board wants us to be smart, whats up with that. I could learn a lot in four days and I’m sure many people could live with that. Anyway the point is that I am way stressed and I don’t know what to do about it so if you have any advice I would love it. Thank you for reading my blog.
Cramps
Now almost every girl I know had dealt with cramps and they have dealt with cramps too. I have practically only had five periods because I didn’t start too long ago but I started long enough to know how terrible cramps hurt. The way everything is playing out it looks like I will have mine the last week of every month but it has only been five times so I can’t be sure. All I know is that I have had really bad cramps and all I want to do is curl up and go into a coma for a whole week until it is over. They hurt so bad that not even Midol can help all of the time. First I couldn’t even find the Midol so I was taking IB Pro-fin and that helped but I was miserable with cramps. I couldn’t even drink caffeine which was OK because that would have made my cramps worse. Luckily my mom was there with me through it and the last time that I had cramps that bad, my grandma was a great help and I was so thankful that she was there. Luckily it is over but sadly I have to look forward for another at the end of this month. I feel sorry for all that are going through this and those that are getting ready to start because it really isn’t fun and you are not missing anything. Thanks for reading this blog.
Meteor (not a real one)
I think that I have just spent 4 hours of my life on a two episode show that have actors that I don’t even know and they couldn’t act if the world was actually ending. There is no way on Earth that this was a hit because I would know, and when these people act like they are crying there are no tears coming from their eyes. The same girl has said “We are all going to die.” and every time nobody has died so maybe this time they can actually die so that my mom can go to bed, for no particular reason. She keeps saying that if the old cop dies that she will delete one of the actually good shows about the world ending, even if that doesn’t seem right. The same girl keeps missing her chance to actually save the world and it’s like no matter what she does the world will end. The old man ended up living and the world was just saved so maybe we can finish the movie with bad acting. The meteor was hit away from Earth so now everyone can get on with their fake lives and fake acting. Maybe it would be the best for all of us if they didn’t make another movie about the world ending as long as the world is still safe from a real meteor. That was my blog about bad acting and if you saw the show I am talking about and you liked it I am very sorry for my blog but that was my opinion.
